Hope life's been good to you
since you've been gone
I'm doin' fine now--I've finally moved on
It's not so bad--I'm not that sad

I'm not surprised just how well I survived
I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive
I can't complain...I'm free again


And it only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart only breaks when it's beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming
So, I hold my breath....to forget

Don't think I'm lying around crying at night
There's no need to worry, I'm really all right
I've never looked back....as a matter of fact
 

It only hurts when I'm breathing
My heart  only breaks when its beating
My dreams only die when I'm dreaming 
So, I hold my breath.. to forget 

It only hurts when I breathe


It onlyHurts when I'm breathing
It onlyBreaks when it's beating
I only Die when I'm dreaming
It only hurts when I breathe

Two to one
Static to the sound of 
You and I undone
For the last time

Don't you think 
I wish that I could stay?
Your lips give you away

I can hear it
A jet engine
Through the center of the storm
And I'm thinking I'd 
Prefer not to be rescued

Two to none
Roads that lead away from this
I'm following myself
Just this once
And I got spun
It appears you're spun as well
It happens when you pay attention
Or this could take all year

But when it's quiet
Does he hear me?
Jettisoned to the center of the storm
And I'm thinking I'd prefer not to be rescued
And Oh, I can feel him
he's dying just to keep me cold
And I'm finally numb
So please don't get me rescued
Rescued

And it's unclear
But this may be my last 

I, I can tell
he got me warm
So please don't get me rescued
And oh say you'll miss me
One last time
And I'll be strong
Whatever you do
Please don't get me rescued

'Cause I'm feeling like
I might need to be near you
And I feel alright
So please don't get me rescued

dear boy...

i didnt knowwho you were or when we would meet, but i did hope it would be soon.

i prayed that when we met, and fell in love you'd love me fo me, and not hope for someone prettier or smarter. I hoped that you wouldnt compare me to girls you had in the past. I hopped that you would amke me laugh and take care of me.

             and you did all those things...

i hoped you would remember i prefer tulips to roses, and that my favorite song changes with my mood. And i hoped you would notice my eyes aren't blue, but green with flecks of navy.

                        and you remembered it all...

I hoped youd know i might be to shy to kiss you firs, but you wouldnt be afraid to kiss me. i hoped youd know i wouldnt push you away and i was sure your kisses would be perfect. i hoped when we went on a date you knew the only important thing was that i was with you.

              and you knew...

i hoped you know if i cried it wasnt because of you, and that youd just hold me close and i would heal quickly. And youd know if it was becasue of you, you could heal me just the same.And i hoped if we broke up youd understand eventually i'd like to be your friend, if youd let me.I hoped youd know i'd promise to remmebr you have feelings even though youd never admit it, and when you were ready we'd have a friendship.

                            and you did....

How is it one moment you feel ok... you dont miss him as much... you dont hurt as bad... and then one thing, one tiny small thing can send it all rushing back?

It can pose so many questions you cant answer yourself... so many questions you  dont want to answer. 

It can bring up feelings you thuoght youd burried.... it can bring back memories you thought youd had erased.... it can bring back thoughts you thought you had forgotten... or at least wanted to....

i suck at bowling...  and i forgot how much fun walmart can be.... and people surprise you...